Becoming someone I can trust.... Pt 1.

Can I trust you?....

  I believe this is a fundamental question we all walk around with just underneath the surface. I know for me it was part that lens that I looked through whether I was just meeting someone new or evaluating my long term relationships, where a breach of trust will really hurt because "now they're close and it really means something" 

Where change started:

 There were 2 pivotal moments in my adult life that had me ask this question to the only person who I really needed an answer from: Me  - It became evident that the beliefs I had about honesty, ethics, religion,politics and morals were more about the person I wanted to be in my best moments, rather than the person who I was when the pressure was on and the attention was off. Sometimes I get so busy protecting the things that I have built from others burning it down that I miss the can of gasoline and the book of matches in my own hand. I had to point that question at myself and give an answer at that moment that was true; not easy... just true.

Can I trust ME? - Not yet...

Here is why I think this is an important question to be asking: I find that successful people or people who have accomplished something great have this in common - They Trust Themselves - implicitly and explicitly. They know they're the type of people they can count on when it counts. They work from that position of confidence knowing that if they're doing it they will either accomplish something great or learn something important. They are able to work and create so fluidly because it is not what they do that's on display, it's a pure expression of who they are....

I realized I could never really trust someone that I didn't know. I knew in order to become the person who can say, "yes, you can trust me", I had to start with redefining who I am based on what I do when it matters and no one is looking, rather than how I perform even for an audience of 1.

Stop acting and Start Living... It was time.